I have been told by friends, family, spouse, and my childrens’ counselor’s that I seen like I might have Asperger’s if so it would explain a great deal. One thing that I have noticed is that my memory involving numbers is really good. I hardly ever forget phone numbers, dates and license plate numbers.
I also feel more detached that other people. It is hard to explain but at many times in my life I have felt not fully interfaced. I played sports on occasion and was never really good at it. In addition, I always was very aware that the people who were playing it seemed more involved. I have asked other people what they liked about playing this or that game and I was told the rush of playing it. I have never really felt the so called adrenalin rush of much in life. It is as if I played the part, but it never has been real for me. My life has been like a 2 d movie, where everyone else’s has been 3d and theirs has had better sound as well.
Academics in school were easy, I never really had to try. I never quite got the social, sports or other activities. I have always had trouble reading people. The ironic thing is that I am one of the people who can read a 1200 page book in 2-3 days. When I was out of work 2 years ago, I read all of the twilight books in less than a week, but that has not made me rich, famous or popular.
In regards to friends, I have always wanted them, but other than my wife, and kids, I have no real friends.
I was told by people back in school, you are “trying to hard”, I still do not get what that means.
I am also overly analytical, nothing really, as people have told me comes naturally. Nothing has “come naturally.” My life has been one trying to make friends, understand their interests and trying and failing to be like them.
I am a person that takes nothing at face value.
I have a religion but do not really get it. I find reincarnation intriguing. I question everything, and am a seeker of knowledge.
We live in a world where people accept certain things without question and question other things without seeking the reality of the answer.
I have spent my life being told certain, things, but unlike other people I seek greater understanding constantly.
I wonder a great deal.
What are other people thoughts about spirituality, and autism?
Does anyone else who is Asperger’s have past life memories?
Have any of you felt as I have felt when it comes to playing sports, or making friends?
If so let me know about it and I will post your experiences as well.